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Noises in the mind…..

My mind right now …… full of noise. Noises from out ……and noises from within. 

I look out …..and everything seems so silent and so peaceful. But within there is a noise. A noise of voices , a noise of faces, a noise of events …………and a noise of emotions. 

In the midst of the noise I find myself looking up to the shattered pieces of my life and just wondering how many more times would I try putting them back ?

How many more times would I feel lost, betrayed, ………how many more times would I allow myself to be so vulnerable.

No matter how strong I project myself from the outside…….from within I see myself crumbling. There is a noise of the crumbling too.

Amongst a flood of people ……why do we feel so lonely at times? 

Amongst the silence outside…….why is there still a noise within?

No matter how many times we try to stand up and move on …….why does life keep pulling us down ?

Why do we have to let go …….. the people we love ?

Why aren’t we allowed to love without restrictions ?

Why do we always have to meet the standards?

Why do we need to be the fittest to survive?

Why is it okay to survive with a dead soul ……..but not okay to live with a free soul?

The noise continues … the heart still beats ……and the lungs still breathe.

I guess ……I’ll be another dying soul…..and ……another surviving life.



Joalita .....or Jolta is just one from the crowd. And every post on this blog is one from the crowd of the random thoughts that pass her mind.

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